on Monday, December 20, 2010 at 12:06am
Every time I pick up my bible I see myself in its pages. And I know others do too. But it was tonight that it hit me that we are in every page that's why we have it. It's why it is here. As a little girl I started reading the passages as if I was writing them or as if God was speaking directly to me and then I realized He was. Memorizing the verses switching yous to mes or Is has a very strange effect on the reader. I am very visual, have always been and I would, could and do imagine that I am right there. Jesus asking me to follow Him. Jesus talking to me as He talked to others. In the old testament it's God talking to me.
I've been thinking about Job a lot lately. I know funny thing to be thinking about at Christmas time. But Job has always had a special place in my heart. To have so much taken away. How does one survive? Well to be honest it is much easier(please note I did not say easy) when you remember its all God's. It all belongs to Him. He can take it, give it, remove it, save us from it. And that's when it hit me. God takes away the stuff that hurts us that moves us away from Him. He gives us the stuff that brings us closer to Him, rewards us with stuff we will remember to thank Him for. You know those thoughts you get that are so ingenious, so really cool or make you say wow I never thought of that before. Well guess what I'm betting it wasn't you or I that actually had the thought. It was one of God's gifts. I know, I know because I do it myself, that none of us remember to thank God for everything He gives us. Not that we aren't thankful. okay well maybe some of us aren't and some of us don't know who gave us our stuff, but sometimes we think it's us and we congratulate ourselves. Or we just get so wrapped up in the idea and the carrying out of it that we forget that He gave it to us.
All I'm really saying is we are all Jobs. We all have things that get taken away and we sit while others hammering at us trying to get us to turn away from God because of the stuff that was taken away. But that stuff, those things, those people well some had fulfilled their jobs, some were getting in our way with God and well some we may never know why they were removed this side of heaven. But the things is when we stand up to those who try to turn us from our God. When we give them and Satan over to our redeemer. Well then we redeem too. We get so much more than we deserve. So much more than we can ever know to ask for. Oh it doesn't mean our pains will cease. It doesn't means our paths will suddenly change. though they might. But it does mean the closer we get to God the more we reap the benefits of being His children. The more joy that fills us for no apparent reason.
You can have no family. Have those who loved you die, some write you off as too much trouble, other too far away that though they love you, they just can't reach you and they have lives of their own. And poof all of a sudden, you have these amazing friends and God fills up your life with His family. Gives you sons and daughters and others that may not have your blood in them but are just as much yours as if you had given birth to them. God is amazing. And for Him nothing is impossible. He awakes the need and then fills it. More than that He keeps filling until the blessings pour from your eyes like a waterfall and thank you just doesn't seems like enough. There's a deep resounding joy in your heart and there is no way to express it. But the best thing about it with God is you don't have too. He hears your heart. You might not be able to make others understand, like Job. But God understands. As He alone knows the depth of your despairs. So does He alone know the depth of Joy that only He can bring. I am thankful more than words or even tears can say to have a Heavenly Father who loves me so much. He has given me this life. That He chose, picked out everyone I would meet, what family I would be with, He knew who would love me and who would not. He knew!! He knew. He loved me before anyone had ever met me. He knew me before anyone else and He loved me for exactly who I was, who I am and who I will be. I believe that is how Job felt. So let them come those who would say that there can be no God. Let those come who find fault, say what you will, do as you feel. But you will not, you will never remove my faith, my hope, my love for He who knew me first, He who knows me well, He who knows my all
I've been thinking about Job a lot lately. I know funny thing to be thinking about at Christmas time. But Job has always had a special place in my heart. To have so much taken away. How does one survive? Well to be honest it is much easier(please note I did not say easy) when you remember its all God's. It all belongs to Him. He can take it, give it, remove it, save us from it. And that's when it hit me. God takes away the stuff that hurts us that moves us away from Him. He gives us the stuff that brings us closer to Him, rewards us with stuff we will remember to thank Him for. You know those thoughts you get that are so ingenious, so really cool or make you say wow I never thought of that before. Well guess what I'm betting it wasn't you or I that actually had the thought. It was one of God's gifts. I know, I know because I do it myself, that none of us remember to thank God for everything He gives us. Not that we aren't thankful. okay well maybe some of us aren't and some of us don't know who gave us our stuff, but sometimes we think it's us and we congratulate ourselves. Or we just get so wrapped up in the idea and the carrying out of it that we forget that He gave it to us.
All I'm really saying is we are all Jobs. We all have things that get taken away and we sit while others hammering at us trying to get us to turn away from God because of the stuff that was taken away. But that stuff, those things, those people well some had fulfilled their jobs, some were getting in our way with God and well some we may never know why they were removed this side of heaven. But the things is when we stand up to those who try to turn us from our God. When we give them and Satan over to our redeemer. Well then we redeem too. We get so much more than we deserve. So much more than we can ever know to ask for. Oh it doesn't mean our pains will cease. It doesn't means our paths will suddenly change. though they might. But it does mean the closer we get to God the more we reap the benefits of being His children. The more joy that fills us for no apparent reason.
You can have no family. Have those who loved you die, some write you off as too much trouble, other too far away that though they love you, they just can't reach you and they have lives of their own. And poof all of a sudden, you have these amazing friends and God fills up your life with His family. Gives you sons and daughters and others that may not have your blood in them but are just as much yours as if you had given birth to them. God is amazing. And for Him nothing is impossible. He awakes the need and then fills it. More than that He keeps filling until the blessings pour from your eyes like a waterfall and thank you just doesn't seems like enough. There's a deep resounding joy in your heart and there is no way to express it. But the best thing about it with God is you don't have too. He hears your heart. You might not be able to make others understand, like Job. But God understands. As He alone knows the depth of your despairs. So does He alone know the depth of Joy that only He can bring. I am thankful more than words or even tears can say to have a Heavenly Father who loves me so much. He has given me this life. That He chose, picked out everyone I would meet, what family I would be with, He knew who would love me and who would not. He knew!! He knew. He loved me before anyone had ever met me. He knew me before anyone else and He loved me for exactly who I was, who I am and who I will be. I believe that is how Job felt. So let them come those who would say that there can be no God. Let those come who find fault, say what you will, do as you feel. But you will not, you will never remove my faith, my hope, my love for He who knew me first, He who knows me well, He who knows my all
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