just thinking

on Thursday, January 20, 2011 at 10:06pm

just thinking I was wondering how many people think Jesus came just to die on the cross. If that was so why come as a baby. No He came for much more. He came to teach, to correct wrong preaching and to love. He came to show all that they are loved no matter what. I was thinking of my two brothers and my sister who competed for my dad's love which is so well funny isn't the right word maybe strange. Because Dad loved his kids all of us. He adored us and wanted us to be the best we could and he never pushed us to be anything other that what we were. There were things he did that were misinterpreted especially by Katherine my biological mother but he never really cared what we did as long as we did what was right. He worried about each of us constantly. He was always afraid one would feel more loved than another because one had earned more privileges, because of better behavior and my brothers especially my eldest brother knew the buttons to push to get what he wanted. My youngest sister so idolized Rusty, my oldest brother that she too started following in his footsteps and manipulating dad with their "you just don't love me enough" routine. ugh it got really old and frustrating especially as I could never keep my mouth shut and was usually told to shut up. well that was the meaning of what they said pretty much. David my middle brother was not manipulative at least not really. He was more scared. His real father didn't want him but my dad adored him. David seemed to always doubt if he was good enough and Rusty used that. it was sad to watch and of course nobody listens to the little sister telling them their being idiots of course in hind sight maybe calling them idiots wasn't the best way to start the conversation of how much Dad loved each of us. so they still battle though I do hope for mom's sake, (that would be my step-mom Nancy) that it has tapered off some since dad passed away but who knows. I must admit I like living so far away. The drama well it really isn't my thing. Which brings me the long way around to my point. God loves all of us. He hasn't picked out just certain people that he might like in hopes that they will someday like Him back. God knows exactly who we are, what we have done and what we will do. He loves us like my dad loved his kids. God loves us not because of what we do but in spite of it. He adores us because we are His creation. We are His sons and daughters. But He wanted us to have the choice of Him and to do that we had to have something to chose from. So sin and Satan came to stay. Well not stay there will be an end to them but not to God or His everlasting love. We just have to choose Him. It really is just that easy. Though we love to make everything way more complicated, which explains at least one of the reasons He came here doesn't it. I always like the first verses of Genesis. That all three were there. The Light of the World, the creator of everything and the Spirit that moved over water. The body, the soul, the spirit that He made us to be. I love thinking of how Jesus decided to be the light of the world before there was light to be had. Light didn't come until the fourth day. God made our salvation before He made us! Or at least that is how I see it. I love the word of God, the Spirit that lives within me. I love that He loves me even when no one else would. I love that I will never be without Him no matter what. He is the only one that can do that.